06022023 I don’t recall his name, we have never spoken directly. But I know who he is, as he knows me. I guess we know of each other, but do not know one another. Same schools, same schoolmates, same home town. Same restaurants, same bars, same shops. We remember what…

The Gods are going to be coming back The fear The ritual The paranoia The misogyny The parochial The feral The cruelty The patriarchy The covens The fatalists The warriors …

Tonight, in the dusk, on the patio, with evening cig, I see a tiny reddish-colored bird land in the middle of the back lawn—just a few yards from where I am silently standing. It is small in shape; I think at first, in the dusk, a robin, but then it…

It is 1:15 AM. The dream- he was in it. Somehow I was supposed to meet up with him and I got caught in some sort of border issue. Half way on my journey my father appeared and told me he was a fraud. Don’t go he said. I meet…

It has been almost two full days without Kloni. I go to CVS this bright beautiful day to retrieve my refill. 30 count 1mg daily. In October I had been down to 11 count at .25mg, but life went screwy end of November and I had all bumped up. I…

My mother has remarried. The man has three sons. My mother invites us to visit the house. It is the family home they are moving into. I am furious inside. Jealous. Concerned. But I go to meet them. In this dream all is grey, it is fall rain. It is…

The lilac has rooted, the grape vines are trying, a repotted maple shoot is alternating between seemingly fine and wilting. The seeds directly sown are starting to sprout: tomato, cucumber, pepper, chives, lupine. A lupine shoot bought at a garden center has taken in nicely and appears to be doing…

Off Ward and In the Madhouse I got off the ward. The street kid from Lawrence was right. So long as I acted and was semi-lucid, they couldn’t keep me. I was released and got a cab back to my father’s. Complete sentences and thinking were still very difficult for…

Vague remnants of a dream remains. Walking through an empty mall. A man is with me. I know him and he is a friend but I know no one who looks like him in my waking life. We are chatting about the pandemic. How strange the world has become. …