Shootings Up Today

Spring has sprung. Next week a day expected in the 80s here.

I see in the doom scroll 5 shootings in the past day and 1/2.

I want out of all of this. I want far away.

I want somewhere far away and forgotten.

I am dizzy lately. Can’t tell if it is because I have been so sedentary, or lack of appetite, lack of fruits and vegetables, menopause or mood disorder. I am guessing just the whole mash of all of the above is the cause.

I do know the gun violence will increase in the next few days and months. It is violence brought in by increased temperatures and frayed human minds.

Seasonality and violence has long been confirmed. Now you throw in modern stressors, bad air, drugs, economic instability. . . BOOM.

It seems only but a blink that I couldn’t wait for beach season, sun in in my hair, a bikini, suntan oil, days out side with no shade. A deep berry tan.

Now I hate the approach of summer. The heat, the solar glare, the tension in the air.

Now October through February are my favorite months. Cozy, quiet, not feeling like a sloth when all I want to do is sleep.

I feel guilty for sleep in the summertime. As if I am letting my youth spin away from me.

But I am old now . . .and yet still this FOMO circus trickles into my brain.

Get thin, get tan, go to a dance club, dodge bullets. Live fast and die young…